Course Win

Paul is not an ex-scio. He is a former Monk from some obscure Jesuit
discipline.

He has had his Codes found and has had approx 150 hours of processing.

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Date: Mon May 5 23:56:45 CDT 1997
From: Paul
Subject - My Win Log

2:29 PM CDT Dallas... Working with Barbara: I observed and ran off two weird
"absences" of mass. Both were there by misownership -- one from grandma's
family, one from a boss. The space around me, I realized, in comparison to
this absence of mass, is filled with life force & substance (some good, some
bad) and my Spiritual Teammates.

Where the "absense" existed, there seemed to be nothing.

Then, there was no absence! And I saw my Spiritual Teammates move into the
space that was now free of a feeling of absence. There then was a rushing in
of love between my Spiritual Teammates and me. It became a torrential stream
flowing into and through my being, a reunion. What joy! A oneness in
teamwork! I realized that I was stepping off and releasing the block in "my
garden hose", allowing the flow to began: Massive amounts of life force
particles are releasing and recovering. I'm in tears and joy... and LOVE.

We're been running the new presence process which has shown me my non-
ability to be present, or to be present with an attitude. I saw I'd been
putting up walls to people and not wanting to know my own pain. So I used
the attitude of peacefulness to deny the pain I couldn't handle all around
me. I denied it, pushed it out of the road, and stood on "my garden hose" so
that I couldn't receive much of the love that has been flowing to me from
close friends, the universe, and my Spiritual Teammates. (STs took all of
the junk I denied and "kept" it, but this blocked the flow of love between
us because I wasn't willing to accept what they had: the junk AND the love.)

As one treats his teammates, so he treats others as well.

As we ran the "Celebration of Wins", I saw a recovered ability of increased
power for perception and permeation to receive love. Then I realized that
this is all the ability to be Present!

This is PRESENCE!!!

Love,

Paul

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